I think this is the question on most 20 something girls... and guys.
What. The. Fuck. Am. I doing.
I'll tell you this. I am 22. I was got married at 19 to something like... the love of my life? Then divorced at 21. I didn't go to a university. I studied bullshit classes and fell into a "Master" esthetics program that I completed with along with laser courses.
I had it figured out guys. I was married to a soldier in the U.S. Army and I was so proud. I had a college education (community and tech schools lol) I had a cute little apartment, and I was a cute little housewife and I would clean, cook, and fuck my husband like the good little wife that I was.
Then my husband decided he didn't love anymore. Ok fine, we can work on it. But we didn't and it got worse. He wouldn't have sex with me anymore. No matter how much lingerie I bought or how kinky I would offer to be in bed he wouldn't. Always an excuse... "I'm too tired" Dude you're 25 you're not too tired. Anyway I won't get into these details just yet, this is just a brief overview right?
After all I don't know how to write a blog, I just want to show people maybe they're not so fucked up after all.
Ok so fast forward I'm 21 and we're getting divorced. I decide to move across the country to live where my mom lives. Now I'm.... happy? Living here alone, no job, no friends.... just alone.
Then my sister moves here, I get a job, I have a boyfriend and I'm.... not happy.
So this is now. I live in a condo by myself, working full time, good relationship. But this isn't how it goes. I'm not doing something right. I hate my job, I cheat on my boyfriend looking for attention on dating sites and I'm depressed.
So what happened? Where did I go wrong? What am I doing... I have no idea. but I am determined to figure it out....
You guys want to ride along as I figure this life out?
I can't promise it will be entertaining, or happy, or funny. But it will be real, and I think other people will relate.
More to come soon. I just wanted to give you, and myself, a place to start.
-Later
